The following piece was written in response to the call for artistic submissions about the Hot Button Topics.
I thought we were together, but after some clumsy words about an assumed similarity,
I found that we were not as together as I had originally thought
I was “here” and you were “there”
I said “this”
Then you said “that”
Then I said “this” again but louder so you would listen
Then you said “that” even louder to me, as if it would somehow make me understand
Instead of agreement
I felt an invisible wall slam down between us
As though there were some cosmic line drawn in the shifting sand of relationship
that would stop us from ever being together again
On my side of the wall
I felt alone yelling my truth
Pounding my fists in futility
Feeling my cheeks flush hot with indignation
You not listening
You kicked hard on the other side
Defending your truth
Spitting words with an equal ferocity
Oblivious to my assertions
This fire of division burned for a while,
But like the promise of a calm after a storm
The fire and brimstone we threw at each other
Became flickering embers at our feet
I leaned against that wall in exhaustion
You did the same
Our backs to each other
I was still and so were you.
In the quiet we listened to the silence
Then suddenly
I felt a subtle tapping against the wall
My irritation bristled,
I thought you were at it again with your reasoning and contentions
Your pointing and kicking
So I climbed up that wall in anger to let you have it
Little did I know, you felt it too, that tapping on your back
Assuming it was me, you jumped to give me a piece of your mind
Up that wall you clamored ready to go at it again with renewed conviction
Our eyes met at the top of the wall.
I yelled for you to stop kicking
And you screamed at me to stop pounding
I said in confusion, but I didn’t pound
You said in bewilderment that, you didn’t kick
And there we were
Eye to eye
Chest to chest
Hanging on our sides of the wall
Out of breath from the exertion, we stared at each other
In that moment, I saw my friend
And you saw me too
I remembered the time we laughed so hard until we cried about some silly joke between us
You remembered the days when we were inseparable and we had each other’s back
Then once again, we both felt that rhythmic tapping
Steady and strong
Sometimes revelation comes in silence
Like a gift left at the door
It surprises and delights at the same time
And leaves you indebted by love
When we stopped the noise
We could feel each other’s heart
It was our hearts beating through the wall
Then a wave of remorse came over me
And regret overtook you
A swell of connection, in spite of our differences
And in this face to face
The dividing wall seemed to shift and disappear
There we stood
Connected by our humanity
I thought we were divided, but after some clumsy words about an assumed difference,
I found that we were not as divided as I had originally thought
I was “here” and you were “there”
But we were in it together
I said “this”
Then you said “that”
And we listened to each other with our hearts
Then I said, “I love you friend”
And you said, “I love you too”